24 hours completed

Feeling slightly drained...made it to the first 24 hours...

Today it's mothers day. I'm going to be good to myself.

Reasons to stop drinking😣

I stumbled across another blog here and her blog is the reason I thought I would start my own diary.

No idea if anyone will ever read my stuff. But...I hope someone does...feeling so alone right now.!

She says we should make a list of reasons why we must stop drinking.

So here is mine.

Health worries...seriously the amount I drink up to 11 drinks on binges is definitely doing damage.

My kids...they are undoubtably the best blessings...even though at the same time they are the same reason why I drink.

My husband...I am married to the most amazing man. Who loves me unconditionally. He has been with me since day one to a path of recovery to trying to moderate. I don't want to let him
down.

I like the effect alcohol has on me. It makes you happy and makes you sleep for those nights when you can't fall asleep.  I probably like it too much!

Those are it. On paper its so simple. Those are fantastic reasons. Those should be enough right?

I hope so.....I'm tired of this toxic lifestyle.

Todays a new day..

And a new day means new beginnings.

So here I am starting this blog.

I'm a mum of two gorgeous boys and a wife to an amazing husband. The problem is mummy is living a toxic life with alcohol abuse, terrible anxiety, and a general feeling of ugliness.

Somethings got to give. I'm refusing to believe and  continue a toxic life.

I hope to find sobriety and find a healthier me for my own sake and my family sake.

I need to break free from these issues and find a bew path to deal with stress in a none toxic way.